Meaning of "Believe Me I'm Lying" by Forever The Sickest Kids

The lyrics of "Believe Me I'm Lying" present a conflicted narrative of someone who is aware of their wrongdoings but struggles to fully take responsibility for them. The speaker acknowledges their tendency to lie and deceive, even about trivial matters, and expresses regret for hurting the other person. They seem to have a sense of guilt and self-awareness regarding their actions, as reflected in lines like "I never, never, never, should have taken this so far" and "I could make you feel like the queen of the world but I won't, because you're full of imperfections." This suggests a level of introspection and perhaps a desire to change their behavior, although they still struggle with the impulse to deceive. The repeated refrain "Go ahead and buy yourself a drink / Cause you know you're deserving of it / Go ahead and cry yourself to sleep / And think how you hate me so bad" captures a complex mix of emotions - acknowledging the other person's pain while also recognizing their own flaws. The final lines of the song, urging the listener to take care of themselves despite the hurt caused, suggest a desire for redemption and reconciliation, even if it may be difficult to achieve.